Inside the life of a College Student...

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2011-01-26T18:13:00.001-08:00

BEAUTIFUL.

2011-01-20T11:14:00.000-08:00

Chill Bumps Moment ..

2011-01-16T12:34:00.000-08:00

So I know everyone has those times that something God does in your life gives you chill bumps, well that happened to me today- let me explain...
Im doing the Beth Moore "90 days with Paul" bible study and at the end of a day is just a prayer page and a time to reflect and just write out prayers to God. Well today I was just pouring my heart out to God about how horrible of a memory I have and how much I just wanted Him to reconstruct my memory to be about to remember things and so that I would be about to have a better knowledge and understanding of who He is... etc, etc., etc., and then as soon as I get done I look to the next page of the title of the next day and the title was "Committed to Memory".. and I got instant chills :)

-My God is so great, supplying in times of need and keeping my head up through tough times and even keeping my fueled with joy in all circumstance :)

God is Good

2011-01-16T12:05:00.000-08:00

Lately God has been radically doing big things in me with the people around me. I am learning what its like to grow up and begin to make decisions that not only affect me but people around me as well .. I attended passion at the beginning of 2011-It was amazing and im so in awe of how big my God is and how he moves in college students from everywhere...

So Ive been reading a lot of Beth Moore's blog lately and she has challenged us as women to memorize scripture in the year 2011. This is huge for me because I know that personally God speaks to me to much through scripture that I know I have "hidden in my heart"and all of you who know me know I have about the worst memory in the world so this is kinda a fun challenge for me too..

So as I started this challenge I began with a verse from Psalms 27:13-14 that says ..

¹³ I remain confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.
¹⁴ Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD. - NIV

Im normally not a KJV lover but i love the way that the NKJV puts it for me and my situations in life:

¹³ I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the LORD
In the land of the living.
¹⁴ Wait on the LORD;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the LORD!

This is huge for me : (Especially the Green Areas)
God is not only wanting me to memorize the first part but to BELIEVE it.. and place it in my heart through all times.. and the second part, God knows how I am a deeply woven and complicatedly knit together individual with deep thought process and wanting understanding in everything.. I think here God is completely telling me.. Lauren, calm down the future is in my hands .. wait on me.. take heart.. and let me strengthen your heart while you wait.. so that you can fully love my people ( your family, the students that will walk in your classroom daily, the wonderful man I have in your life, and spreading my love to the friends around you, and a heart for the city I will place you in next )

Its not to late for you to being this scripture challenge as well... here is the jist- 2 verses a month, memorize, let God do drastic thing in your life - Sounds simple enough right :)

My God is still Providing and Touching Lives ...

2010-12-20T10:19:00.000-08:00

2010-12-17T22:25:00.000-08:00

He is here for the broken and life to the one who is undone
He is peace to the wounded and hope for the helpless one
He is here,He is here

Be still my soul, be still
Be still my soul, be still
wait patiently upon the lord
Be still my soul, be still

When the waves rise aginst me and the wind tries to draw me away
I will stand on the mountain, safe in your arms I will sing I will sing

Be still my soul, be still
Be still my soul, be still
wait patiently upon the lord
Be still my soul, be still

Be still I know he is God
He is here, he is here
Be still I know he is God
He is here , he is here

So Be still my soul, be still
Be still my soul, be still
wait patiently upon the lord
Be still my soul, be still
wait patiently upon the lord
Be still my soul, be still
-kari jobe

Early Christmas

2010-12-17T09:41:00.000-08:00

School is finally over and the Christmas season is beginning ... This is the first year in a long time that i have been all about Christmas and really getting into all of the cheerfulness of Christmas :)
This Christmas is a little different thought because Grant came home with me after finals and we got to celebrate Christmas early together before he went back to east Tennessee with his family.
I had a wonderful week with him and he did very good on my presents this year - He got me a beautiful necklace and painted me a beautiful painting :)

You Won't Relent

2010-11-30T13:15:00.000-08:00

I have been in awe of God and how relational He is lately.. I recently purchased the Jesus Culture CD and it has completely amazing worship music on it... I would suggest for anyone to buy it on Itunes...It has so much passion and so much praise for our maker...

One of the songs on the CD is called "You Wont Relent" - Misty Edwards. I fell in love with this song but wanted to search deeper to its true meaning so I looked up what "Relent" really meant- Relent is to abandon, give up, or let loose of .. These lyrics are so powerful.. Read them knowing what this means...

You won't relent until You have it all
My heart is Yours

I'll set You as a seal upon my heart
As a seal upon my arm

For there is love that is as strong as death
Jealousy demanding as the grave
Many waters cannot quench this love

Come be the fire inside of me
Come be the flame upon my heart
come be the fire inside of me
Until You and I are one

Then after reading these I found this verse..
Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm. For love is as strong as death, its jealousy as enduring as the grave. Love flashes like fire, the brightest kind of flame. -Song of Solomon 8:6
How amazing it is to worship and sing to God using scripture and How powerful God really is in the relationships He longs for with us...

BABY MOLLY

2010-11-29T07:55:00.000-08:00

Giving God many thanks today for His perfect timing and His perfect provisions through the Trentham's adoption of Molly. Baby Molly was received by the Trenthams as we all slept last night.

Remembering today to be thankful even after thanksgiving in any and all circumstances :) Praise God for the provider that He is and His protective nature :)

Congratulations Trenthams !!!

Meeting Molly

2010-11-28T10:41:00.000-08:00

Some friend's of the Barnett family are in China right now adopting a precious little girl named Molly. This is a blog that I created for them so that they would be able to track their journey in China and their adoption process. Little Molly will be in America in early December , Please be in prayer for the Trentham family during this process of adoption.

http://mollytrentham.blogspot.com/

Thanksgiving Break

2010-11-28T10:28:00.000-08:00

It was about time for a break at school... everyone was getting tired and ready to see families. This year mine and Grant's family decided to come together in Athens for thanksgiving break. We had Thanksgiving dinner together and the next day went and took pictures together in the mountains of Tennessee... It was BEAUTIFUL :) God has blessed our families so much and I am so thankful for my family as well as the Barnetts :)

Remembering My Purpose

2010-09-14T09:01:00.000-07:00

Share each other's burdens, and in this way obey the law of Christ.- Galations 6:2

Since the year started, its been busy and filled with so many fun events, activities, new people, new lifestyles, etc. But I was quickly reminded of my purpose once again the other day, let me explain...

You know how they say as women we wear different "hats" for all the different jobs that we must do, well i think i'm called to be a "Mascara Wearer" if that makes any sense at all.. I feel at this point in my life that God has called me to listen and be there for the girls that he has placed in my life, in the chaos of this year i had forgotten this and just thought that everyone was fine on their own this year, but i was sadly mistaken when walked into my doom room the other day to find a roommate in tears... i grabbed her and hugged her and just prayed with her.. after we were done i was left with huge black stains on my shirt for the rest of the day.. and you know what i was completely okay with it... for me- having clean shirts everyday means im being a lazy christian, there are so many girls out there crying needing someone to listen to them encourage them and just be there for them through rough times.. so this semester thats one of my goals... make myself available, don't get to busy in doing "me" that i forget what im really here for and to minister to the people around me and to look for opportunities :)

2010-08-22T08:05:00.000-07:00

Feeling Crafty

2010-08-17T21:50:00.001-07:00

Today ended up being an endless day of crafts and I just wanted to share all of my craftyness with everyone... Emma had asked me to paint the Wells canvas for her boyfriend's birthday, the two zebra boards are for a friendof my moms little girl :) hope she likes them... and the earrings... went to a craft store this morning because i found a coupon for 40% off .. so i thought hey lets be crafty today.. so today i bought stuff to make earrings.. i think it may be one of my new hobbies :)

Family Vacation..

2010-08-11T11:04:00.000-07:00

Just got back from a week long vacation with the Barnett family and it was so much fun.. we started by going to Atlanta and then going to Tybee Island.. It was a week full of laughs, sunburns, getting to know each other, and having loads of fun :)

On the first day I got to go to my first Braves game ever.. It was so much fun I was like a little kid on Christmas morning I was so excited.. I threw my tomahawkup every time the Braves song came on it was so much fun.. It ended up pouring down rain at the game but it was so nice because it was so hot at the game .. i loved every minute of being there and asked 100's of questions the whole time..

The second day of vacation was spent laying on the beach and getting so burnt on the first day (because i mean how else are you supposed to do it ) and plenty of jellyfish stings :/

But overall it was a very good day and a walk on the beach ended the night perfectly :)

The third day was great, beach and pool time, and no jellyfish:) I loved laughing with these people all day long everyday. We had an intense game of phase 10 while we were gone (which i won :) and roland and emma kept me in laughter every single night :)

The next day consisted of more laying out, drinks by the pool (virgin of course :) and that night getting dressed up and going on a sunset dolphin excursion !! When we got to the place, it seemed major sketch-ball but once boarding the boat and getting my bottom wet, it was a great and romantic night with my boyfriend and his family :)

I loved getting to know this sweet family and them just accepting me in as one of their own the whole week. Grant and I are so crazy together and I love every minute I get to spend with him. Praying that God continues to lead us both in our relationship and grow our families closer together.

TYBEE ISLAND 2010 :)

Background Change...

2010-08-11T10:57:00.000-07:00

So the reason for the background change..
Well I'm about to start my last year of college and as scary as that is, it is very exciting at the same time.
Im very excited about becoming a teacher and having my own classroom, but im also scared of new atmospheres, new friends, and new locations.
So many unanswered questions go with me into this semester but I know Im not on this journey alone.. My God is here protecting me and guiding me and teaching me to wait upon his timing and that He has everything in control.
So here we go .. Last year of college.. Live to the Fullest :)

Good artist to check out on YouTube:
-Brantley Gilbert
-Matt Papa
-Gungor

Everyone is starting school or packing up to move back into college.. Im wishing everyone a Great School Year :)

2010-07-26T18:04:00.000-07:00

HAPPY THURSDAY

2010-07-22T14:18:00.001-07:00

....Got these from the boy today, such a great surprise at work...

2010-07-21T21:48:00.000-07:00

"...You Are My Sunshine
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away..."

So I hope that everyone remembers this little kid song that all of our mothers used to sing to us when we were children... because i know i sure do remember this :) Lately I have had so many encounters with old memories of childhood games, fads, and friendships. When we're kids everything seems so innocent and so pure and so fun and everything is worth loving.. Just sitting here remembering when we were all the pink or red power ranger, or when playing house on the playground and everyone wanted to pretend that they were 13 and be a teenager, or when we were scared we just run and jump into mommy and daddy's arms.. those were the days..

But as we grow up things get tougher, decisions have to be made daily, we have to fight our own monsters, lose that innocent pure love, and being a teenager like we thought wasn't so cool and carefree after all..

I think that's why God calls us to come with childlike faith. Its a pure innocent love that is unconditional or when we get hurt we run into daddy's arms. This is such a beautiful picture to me tonight.. I desire to bring this pure innocent love, and childlike fun into my life again.. it makes things so much more fun to experience.

Relationships in our life get complicated. People get upset, times get hard, you get off track with how you wanted it to be.. but remember to cherish the little things in life.. a simple chat, talking about memories of childhood things, keeping things pure in every relationship.. these are the moments in life that count.. you can make or break relationships with choices you chose .. so don't take for granted what you have .. have fun goofing off and smiling while producing rays of sunshine in the people's lives around you ..life is short.. don't miss it. :)

Monday's Music Choice..

2010-07-19T04:40:00.000-07:00

Everyone should but this CD .. Ive been listening to it while getting
ready the last couple of days and i'm loving it ..
Enjoy your Monday :)

I'm Called to Live Radically

2010-07-18T18:35:00.000-07:00

At the beginning of the summer I had a few goals/prayers for my life.. One was to find this RADICAL Christ like passion of love , and serving, and living obediently all for the cause of Christ. I actually thought that this would be an easy task at first and that I was a "pretty good" christian and that I was doing everything right .. Boy was I wrong and God had so much more in store for me than I every imagined.. Not only did he want me to to reach this goal of living radically but He wanted and continues to want me to be there way more than I could ever wanna be there. This summer has been full of radical lifestyle changes and ultimately sacrificing of self and learning to become so selfless all for the cause of Christ. When you do this.. God begins to use you in amazing ways. This summer has proven to be one of the toughest summers emotionally that I have had in my spiritual walk but there has never been one day go by that I couldn't continue to see the light at the end of the tunnel and know that God is still in control of it all and that His plan is best for me... Believe me this has been and will continue to be a learning process but God has supplied everything I have asked for along the way and supplied me with great accountability and opportunities to serve in so many ways that I have taken for granted before now. The beginning of this stage of radical living was tough .. I wanted to hold on to security blankets of friends pulling me down, and doing things to get noticed and get credit in the spiritual world for doing so that everyone around me knew I was doing great things for Christ.. But God has covered me in His grace and though it is a daily battle and will continue to be a lifestyle change .. Living Radically is what it is ultimately all about.. I am so excited that I came across this book called "Radical" by David Platt.. I think this week I will start reading it... It seems to fit along perfectly with what God is doing in my life this summer...

Call Me A Hopeless Romantic..

2010-07-16T17:49:00.001-07:00

So after all summer long of everyone wondering what me and Grant were defined as, I can now officially say that Grant Barnett is my boyfriend. I am so excited for the new adventures and funny stories that will come my way with this new relationship.

I know that everyone is wondering how he asked me to be his girlfriend so I am happy to tell you all about it. Grant and I are both huge into music so we have had this thing all summer about making CD's for each other and Grant calls his CD's "A mix", "B Mix", and so on.. I knew that when he asked me to be his girlfriend that i would be getting "C Mix" and i just knew that it would be coming this weekend .. When Grant got here, through the day it had come up that he didn't bring "C Mix" to Southaven, and I got very disappointed very quickly and turned into diva mode almost instantly. Later that afternoon, when pulling into the movie parking lot for our date, Grant looked and me and said, "Lauren, I dont wanna go into this movie a single man, so thats why I didnt bring "C Mix" because I had to change the name to "G Mix" instead because I am ready for you to be my girlfriend. I got the biggest smile on my face and said " I would love to be your girlfriend." Grant reached in the back seat and pulled out a package for me. Grant and I have been friends for about a year and a half now so there have been random fun encounters that we have had happen together that we have just realized we were there together recently. And in my package was reminders of all of these old memories. First I pulled out thread- this was for when we both had our eyebrows threaded one afternoon while watching the Tennessee game with friends. Next, I pulled out a whistle- this was because Grant loves rap music and we always rap the line "I'm so official, all I need is a whistle". Next I pulled out a sonic gift card- this was because we both LOVE Sonic sweet tea. Next I pulled out the movie Farmhouse- this was because me and Grant were always the movie go getters when everyone would get together to watch a movie and one night we got the movie Farmhouse which ended up being one of the most horrible movies we have all every watched and we were ban from getting movies for everyone anymore :/ but everyone makes fun of us about it all the time :) and finally I pulled out my "G Mix" CD.

I am so happy for Grant being in my life and Im so happy for new great experiences with him. It has been an amazing weekend with Him being in Southaven with my family and I hope there are many more weekends like this to come....

Just a few more days till I get to have fun with this crazy boy...

2010-07-12T06:47:00.001-07:00

Proverbs 15:13 A happy heart makes the face cheerful,

Ecclesiastes 3:12I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live.

Psalm 68:3 But may the righteous be glad and rejoice before God; may they be happy and joyful.

2010-07-11T18:37:00.001-07:00

2010-07-11T16:10:00.000-07:00

SURPRISE !!!!

2010-07-07T21:15:00.000-07:00

So this weekend I believe I pulled off the stunt of all stunts.. I went to Athens, TN and surprised Grant for his 21st birthday :) After all the hard work of keeping the secret, it ended up being a huge success. Grant was so surprised and we had a wonderful weekend together- having birthday dinner, a surprise party with family and friends after, date day, fireworks, explosions, and church together :) It was a wonderful weekend of getting to know him and his family more and laughing till my stomach hurt every single night from having so much fun. I am so thankful for God placing Grant in my life and I hope that there are many more fun weekends like this in the future :)

Birthday Dinner - Roland, Emma, Grant, and I

Fireworks at the "Depot"... Followed by a crazy night of explosions !!

Not saying Goodbye- Just see ya later :)

Wonderful Wedding Weekend

2010-06-22T07:38:00.000-07:00

This weekend was the Clarke/Bragg wedding in Birmingham, AL. I was super excited for this wedding for a couple of reasons.. seeing old friends, watching friends get married, and seeing a new special someone in my life :) As nervous and excited and happpy as I was it ended up being one of the best weekends that ive had in a very long time. I got to build new relationships and be closer to people that I was missing and the wedding had so many fun elements. I love the example that Josh Clarke and Courtney Bragg (Now Clarke :) have set for the friends and family around them. Thats something I desire for my relationships is to minister and be there for the people that God has placed in my life around me :)

** To Miss Collins: I missed being so close to your house in B-Ham and you not being there , there were so many times i picked up my phone to call u and tell you I was lost or ask you where something was and remembered that I would have called africa :( haha well know you were missed :)

A Few Wise Words From Proverbs:

2010-06-17T09:50:00.001-07:00

Gods been rocking my world with some scripture lately and with some best friends that he has placed in my life at this time, Look at some of this amazing stuff ive been diving into:

I think God put these scriputures in my life to just help confirm that this summer is a time for letting go, clinging to God, growing up and having more knowledge and wisdom through Him...

Proverbs 16
1People may make plans in their minds, but only the Lord can make them come true. 2 You may believe you are doing right, but the Lord will judge your reasons. 3 Depend on the Lord in whatever you do, and your plans will succeed. 7 When people live so that they please the Lord, even their enemies will make peace with them. 9 People may make plans in their minds, but the Lord decides what they will do. 17 Good people stay away from evil. By watching what they do, they protect their lives. 20 Whoever listens to what is taught will succeed, and whoever trusts the Lord will be happy. 21 The wise are known for their understanding. Their pleasant words make them better teachers. 25 Some people think they are doing right, but in the end it leads to death.

God's definetly growing me this summer... and I am definetly being coved by His grace each and everday because I know I mess up so much.. But Gods love is so so big and abounds so fully, Im experiancing this to the fullest :)

IM EXCITED FOR THIS WEEKEND- BRAGG/CLARKE WEDDING IN BIRMINGHAM-PICTURES AND UPDATES WILL COME AFTER THIS WEEKEND :)

the battle is here its time for letting go.. RECKLESS ABANDONMENT

2010-06-15T20:12:00.000-07:00

Well it looks like I am back to being a member of the blogging world. I know its been awhile but I remember lately how much I love reading peoples blogs and how much I love writing and updating mine to keep in touch.

This verse has kinda been claimed as my verse for this summer for several different reasons:

"This is my prayer for you: that your love will grow more and more; that you will have knowledge and understanding with your love,that you will see the difference between good and bad and will choose the good; that you will be pure and without wrong for the coming of Christ; that you will be filled with the good things produced in your life by Christ to bring glory and praise to God." -Philippians 1:9-11

At the beginning of this summer while still in Jackson about to come home from school I was praying about the summer and what it would entail.. I came to the conclusion that I had three goals for my life this summer . 1) Grow In Knowledge and Understanding of Christ 2)That I will begin to have a grown up mindset and begin to turn away from nothingness lifestyles 3) That I would stop living luke warm and radically live for Christ no matter what that entailed.

God has absolutely rocked my world in providing in all these areas in so many ways but im the one thats having trouble letting go of things in my life that are not producing good things and im still wanting to live the fun, lauren controlled life when God is here blessing me with so many people and with amazing qualities of everything I have every asked for .. So why is it so hard to let go , stanf up, stand out, and become reckless for Christ....

This song below keeps repeating the words "I LOVE YOU,MORE THAN LIFE, MORE THAN LIFE" WOW!! How I desire to get to that point this summer where I can honestly and without a shadow of a doubt say God, I love you, more than life itself...

THE HILLS-FINAL SEASON

2010-04-12T22:38:00.000-07:00

you will never realize how excited I am for this.. though the show has never been the same since lauren conrad left.. it is still my favorite show ever.. and april 27 here it comes.. final season..

Easter 2010

2010-04-07T16:43:00.001-07:00

It was so much fun to go home for the second half of spring break. Church was so great to see everyone that I had not seen in awhile.My mom is beautiful and Easter break was made because she is so amazing.I honestly have the best family in the world :)Dying Easter eggs with the little ones was so much fun.. they loved mixing all of the colors :)This is the precious little girl who has my heart. Easter was so much fun and I can not wait to be home for the summer and see what God has planned in Southaven this summer :)

HAPPY SATURDAY :)

2010-04-03T10:59:00.000-07:00

Just a few songs to be encouraged with today... Easter Weekend, Have fun with your families. I was reminded this morning to always be thankful for the small things and complain very little, Happy are the people who take it day by day.

SPRING BREAK - REWIND

2010-04-01T21:54:00.001-07:00

Spring Break was so much fun. The weather was great the whole time we were there.. a little cool in the early mornings but by the afternoons the sun was shining bright :) So many memories were made with these girls and all the other people down there. Overall it was a very relaxing trip that ended up being a huge success. My favorite night had to be the last night we were there.We all dressed up and took pictures on the beach, then went to a place called Baytown Wharf and its like a little village of its own. We ate at a place called Graffiti. After dinner we met a few guys that worked at the Wharf on the zipline and we hung out with them awhile then zip lined for a very reduced price ;) it was so much fun facing our fear of heights. So many jokes were made such as, "So Long Gay Boys" and so many more. I had so much fun with the girls I went with and Im glad to now be home with my family for a few days before heading back to campus after Easter :)

Stuntin like my Daddy

2010-03-26T13:59:00.000-07:00

Thought this video was so cute, So thought I'd post and share.. Enjoy :)

Spring Break ! Spring Break !! Spring Break!!!

2010-03-26T12:24:00.000-07:00

SBX IS FINALLY HERE !!!

SBX (Spring Break 2010) is finally here. I can tell you that every Union student is so excited today and has lacked motivation to do anything for the entire week because of Spring Break. Some of the girls and I are going to Destin, FL for a few days and then its home with family and friends for the Easter weekend :) I will have so many pictures to load over the break to keep everyone updated on spring break happenings. All of my best friends will be down in Florida so it should be pretty fun hopping from place to place. Were taking the convertible so hopefully we have good weather and get really tan :) Pray for safe travels and safe fun while we are down there. Check Back for updates on the trip! Im so excited I can hardly stop smiling, I think everyone is needing this break more than ever :)

Eternal Difference

2010-03-24T08:44:00.000-07:00

First Off, I would like to congratulate the Lady Bulldogs for winning the NAIA Championship game last night. The game was so much fun and being with the greatest friends in the world made it even better. GO DAWGS :)

Waking Up this morning was really tough. Its almost spring break and knowing that a week of nothingness is coming up gives me no motivation to finish this week strong. So I mean this motivation in every part of my life isnt there even spiritually but in this week of "weakness", God has done nothing but make me so much stronger than I ever thought I was. For instance, The verse in my previous post was mailed to me in my mailbox this week at just the perfect timing.. I was getting all worried about Spring Break but God showed Himself fully control in that situation. Also, God has helped me so much in getting over the past.. Moving on from people and making new friends in the process. Through this my view of Love has become very distorted and through that God allowed a friend to give me the quote in my previous post. It just describes Gods awesome love and reminds me to stop placing human qualities on Gods love for me. It bigger, stronger, and more powerful than I could ever fathom.

Also this week a question was posed.. What drives you in life, what is your passion? And me being the typical "spiritual person" that I am rushed and thought well duh God is my passion, But in all reality this question stuck with me so much this week.. Just think about it.. What make you wanna get up every morning? What drives you? These were the three answers I came up with .. GOD..GIRLS..AND ELEMENTARY STUDENTS... God has given me a passion and drive for all three of these areas. I have been running away from my ministry of girls lately but just accepting what people do and saying its ok because maybe it just happened one time. But just as Beth Moore said at passion. Sometimes us as women must live in black and white and just stay out of these grey areas to live a passionate life for Christ. Thats where I must be right now. God has called me here and I was greatly reminded of this through a video in health class this week on women having eating disorders and not thinking they are beautiful..God broke my heart and is preparing me for huge things in these areas now :) Im sure of that :)

Lastly, Today, I was posed with the question- Can Every Student Make an "A"? I didnt really think much of this question at the beginning of class but after class and after a few more conversations today I know that Philippians 4:13- I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.. Is O so true to every extent. I know I may be being a lil " to spiritual" here but just try to stick with me.. I also today heard a story of a pastors son who has been addicted to a drug for three years and was just calling out for God to send someone into his life and he sent a friend of mine into his life this week. Since the night she meet with him he has been clean, he has to be clean for a few more weeks before rehab but hes on his way there and all because God sets up things perfectly and This guy shared that God has been calling him into the ministry for so long but he didnt want to do it bc he didn't feel like God could use someone on drugs but God has supplied him with so many people in his life now and after rehab he will begin to take steps towards ministry.. God works in such great ways.. So like my question posed at the beginning, Can all students make an "A"? Yes.. Gods has called some great people to be teachers and has equipped them with so much of His great power to teach every single student to meet their individual needs.. In Christ ALL things are POSSIBLE :) I can learn to love again, I can be the best teacher out there, and I can help girls believe that they are beautiful and how much their creator loves them. <>< Lauren

2010-03-22T17:12:00.000-07:00

This verse was sent to me in my mailbox today and it could not have come at a better time than what it did :

For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline. So do not be ashamed to testify about our Lord, or ashamed of me his prisoner. But join with me in suffering for the gospel, by the power of God, who has saved us and called us to a holy life—not because of anything we have done but because of his own purpose and grace. This grace was given us in Christ Jesus before the beginning of time. 2 Timothy 1:7-9

This is a quote that I heard last night at it absolutely rocked my world :

Our hearts have been made to cry out for a love that can only come from our Creator...He is saying to us "You cannot fall past my love. You cannot outrun my love. You cannot reach the end of my love."...This is romance pure and simple. This is enduring, unfailing love...the completing love your heart longs for.
- Angela Thomas

God has done such an amazing job of filling my life with so much encouragement this week.. Im Loving Life :)

I'M 21 !!!

2010-03-22T16:45:00.001-07:00

Last weekend was my 21st birthday and it was by far the best birthday that I have had in my whole entire life. My friends and family did such a great job at making it such a great experience :) ... Of course im a Diva so we celebrated my birthday all week but on Wednesday night we had our first softball game and we had so much fun at it even though we lost. Right after the game we put the top down on my car and piled it with girls and rode around campus with the music blasting.. yeah we got in trouble by safety and security but it was so worth it. We hung out all together will midnight and celebrated my birthday by taking crazy pictures... It was a perfect start to my birthday :)
Thursday ( My Birthday) was the best ever.. I began the day with sleeping in, lunch, class, and a package from Tam. The package was a few birthday suprises to make my day fun and a necklace that i had been wanting for awhile, that everyoe else ended up loving as well :) That afternoon Rachael Collins mom came in town and she cooked me a homemade meal for dinner. It was so good :) ATΩ had an open party that night for St. Patty's day and it was so much fun.. we made t-shirts and stayed there til the party was over.. At the end of the party while I was leaving all the ATΩ Guys sang happy birthday to me and it made my night :)
My birthday week was still not over :) Friday night my best friends Jen and Sabe came up to celebrate with me. As well as my roommates and all the boys I hang out with all went out and we had such a fun night. Everyone kept stopping by and telling me happy birthday and I wouldnt have ever wanted that night to play out any different. I had one of the most fun nights of my life that night thanks to all of my friends. And i'm finally 21 !!!!

CHAMPIONSHIP TIME

2010-03-17T11:22:00.000-07:00

MARCH MADNESS
IS HERE !!!
AND MY BRACKETS ALL READY... HERE WE GO....

Anyone else have anyone other than Kansas winning ?? P.S.- Happy St. Patty's Day everyone... My 21st Birthday is tomorrow!! Super Excited :)

Vacouver Bound ..

2010-03-16T17:54:00.000-07:00

Vancouver going away party for The Phillips Family.

Put on Ya Hater Blockers ..

2010-03-16T00:16:00.000-07:00

Here are a few pictures from our Chi Omega "Crush Party" last weekend.

Held in the best arms of all...

2010-03-15T09:39:00.000-07:00

Last night was hard, after several years of loving someone I have to realize that that love cant be there anymore. As hard as I try and as much as I want it to be it cant. God obviously has bigger and better plans right now.. he keeps reminding me over and over through His word just to trust Him...

Philippians 1:6- God began doing a good work in you and im sure that he will continue it until it is finished when Jesus Christ comes again.

Back to last night, I just felt so unloved for a little bit.. Please tell me im not the only female that gets this way sometimes :/.. But it was like a constant tugging at my heart until i sat there and listened to God saying I LOVE YOU LAUREN, I WANNA HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS AND SHOW YOU MY LOVE. Yes i know God loves me but it times of crisis or in emotional girly states, we forget how great, big, and powerful Gods love is for us.

This video spoke volumes to me this morning.. so many times people who want a tangible God forget how real and readily available Gods words are to us. God says all of these things to us through his word and he means every single one of them.. So, today be encouraged by Gods awesome love for you, let his Words speak volumes to you, and rest in His loving arms till your ready to go out to battle again :)

Happy Birthday Memaw

2010-03-12T20:27:00.001-08:00

Tonight was really fun. It was my grandmother's 83rd birthday and we threw her a surprise party. She had no idea we had invited all of her friends, and it ended up being a very fun night :)

Team 4 Domination

2010-03-12T00:25:00.000-08:00

Basketball Season was so much fun this year. We played lower division and we were team 4, let me tell you We Rocked It!! We lost every game we played but we had the most fun out there. We had different theme nights every night such as mardi gras, nerd night, and thugg night :) I've played every intramural so far this year and ove had soooo much fun :)

Journey To Vancouver

2010-03-10T08:38:00.000-08:00

(The Journey to Vancouver picture will take you to the website for Jeff and Sara's Trip details and how you can help...)

Today is going to be a day full of emotions.. laughs, cries, memories, and hope for the future. Gods plan started so long for this couple, when I was about to be a senior in high school our youth minister announced that he was leaving. I was so upset and didn't think that there could be anyone to take his place, I met Jeff ( who was to be our new youth minister) and I hated him. He was all about rules and I was all about wanting to break them. Though over that summer I learned that Jeff was an amazing individual and God was gonna use his family in my life for amazing things.

Jeff played matchmaker in my life, taught me amazing things like how to live a lifestyle of worship, wiped plenty of tears, let us make fun of him, taught me that humblness and serving will get you so far in life, disciplined in love, and taught me that even though im out of his ministry that I have amazing power through Christ to be an Amazing woman of God. I know Jeff always has my back if I need him and I know that Jeff is beginning a new journey in his life but I know that through this God is gonna use him to teach many more people, like he did me, about the awesome jealous God that loves the people of this world.

Sara, Wow what an amazing example of a wife that serves her husband and loves Christ and her children with all of her heart. I have learned more that I ever thought I could from just watching this one woman show Gods love to people around her. She has taught me that when I am a mom that my neighborhood needs Christ's love, being flexible and letting 50+ students at ur house on monday nights will be ok. I have no doubt that God has huge plans for her spiritual walk while in Vancouver, She is a great mother, mentor, wife, and loves God with everything in her. Keep having faith in everything :)

Please be in prayer for the Phillips family as they travel to Vancouver and plant a church there in Vancouver. Know that your family has meant to much to me over the last couple of years and I dont expect our friendship to end here, I expect us to minister together again along the way. I am praying for yall as you leave and begin your new life... when struggles come or when times are great remember that God is still there even when it feels like no one else has energy to keep going.

PASSION CD RELEASE

2010-03-09T07:53:00.000-08:00

PASSION AWAKENING CD WAS RELEASED TODAY. Purchase it today, it will be the best ITunes money that you ever spent. I have been listening to it non stop since I purchased it last night at midnight. It has been bringing back "chill bump" moments from God from that whole week. Im just reminded this morning how awesome Christ is and how he is moving all over the whole entire world this morning, He loves His people that he created :)

Heres the Line-Up:

On the journey of life...

2010-03-08T09:03:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LraOiHUltak

I know this is a very day video but the idea of us not being on this earth very long has hit me pretty hard this weekend. The anniversary of Caleb Bishops death was on March 5th, its been 5 years since that scary morning at the school play when we found out that Caleb had been killed instantly in a car wreck 3 minutes from the school. Though this was 5 years ago and my class of 2007 has been distributed into different colleges across the south, I feel as though there was a special bond with everyone that day that was so amazing to know that through God's amazing grace and glory that he can use something like this to pull us all together in His love.

This weekend I also found out that a really good friend of mine lost his cousin due to overdose and he was only a freshman in college. Sunday Ben Mandrell at Engelwood preached about not fearing death and since we know life is short how do we prepare and be ready for any moment God may take us or someone around us.

This thought hit me so hard.. How do i prepare to die?? a weird concept I know believe me i think im weird for even thinking about it.. but think about it .. God has called us to live for Him in everything each and everyday of our lives because we never know when the end will be. Life is short and by all means have fun and live it to the fullest. But here's some things that Gods taught me about the issue this weekend.

1. be joyful everyday- show Gods love through your happiness, life is to short to have bad days all the time or let the small stuff bother you
2. do not worry about the future, live today to the fullest b/c if your thinking about tomorrow you cant live today to its best.
3. never let people out of your life that really matter- learn from them and teach them things youve learned, it grows the relationship
4. get your relationship with God in order- Hes waiting for you with open arms daily !!
5. Death and the end should not be feared, but rather a time of rejoicing..

1 john 4:18- Where God's love is, there is NO FEAR because God's perfect love drives out fear.
1 john 5:4- .. Everyone who is a child of God conquers the world ( THIS EXCITES ME TO NO END)
Psalm 23- Even though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil, for your rod and staff they comfort me

MONDAY MONDAY MONDAY

2010-02-08T11:16:00.000-08:00

On Mondays, I become a T.V.aholic.. this happened over break.. but let me tell you- they are definitely good shows :) The Bachelor at 7, GREEK at 9, and Buried Life at 10...

When I woke up this morning there was snow on the ground and I went back to sleep and woke up two hours later to nothing on the ground.. and classes were still canceled :) This is great, day with the sister watching movies and hanging out :)

Super Bowl XLIV

2010-02-07T13:31:00.000-08:00

GO COLTS !!!

Not really sure why im pulling for the Colts tonight but I figured that I would just pick a team and go with it so when they win ;) people won't tell me I was jumping on the bandwagon :)

Everyone have fun tonight at all your Superbowl parties tonight.

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men ... Colossians 3:23

First Weekend Back...

2010-02-06T12:35:00.000-08:00

Its the first weekend back at college and I absolutely love being back. Its still a little weird being back and getting into the roll of things again but i'm so happy to be back.
It is so cold here in Jackson and I am definitely ready for summer to get here.

Its been a weekend of birthdays here in Jackson this morning we went to lunch for Kylie and Mattie's birthday. I want to wish these two beautiful girls a **HAPPY BIRTHDAY**

We went and saw the Dear John movie last night and I have very mixed emotions about it. It ended up being very different from the book and yes, the movie has a happy ending but the movie is so emotional that by the end your just ticked that it all ends up the way it does... I would love to hear other people's opinion on the movie.

**Everyone is in Memphis today and it's kinda depressing that everyone is gone.
**My dads birthday is this week and My family might be planning to come up and have dinner with me, I would be so excited for that .. I really miss them after the long break :)

Psalm 68:19- Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens.
(I think that this is becoming my new favorite verse :)

Being Active for Christ

2010-02-03T08:26:00.000-08:00

This morning came a little earlier than I ever expected. I had an 8:00 this morning but couldn't seem to get to bed till about 2:30 this morning, I was like a little kid all excited for school the next day. I just wasn't tired. When my alarm went off this morning I literally had to verbally talk myself into getting out of bed... It's been a long time since i've seen 6:45.

It's gonna take a little bit to get adjusted to college life again, buying my own food, having homework, friends around all the time, etc. but im sure that over the next few weeks I will get in the swing of things. Im going to try to keep my blog updated for everyone back home so that you know whats going on up here in Jackson.

God really had some amazing stuff to tell me this morning. He reminded me to be active for Him. Ive been reading through Romans in the Message version and I absolutely love it. One huge thing that hit me today was .. Love others as much as you love yourself (v.8-10).. WOW! if thats not a pride killer i don't know what is. I think my main goal for this semester is to put a smile on as many people's faces as possible. Remember today that everyone is fighting a hard battle. Be Kind.

**I will be starting Beth Moore's new book "So Long Insecurities" tonight
**It was so exciting today to see everyone last night and be reunited together with everyone...**Sorry if the blog was a bit boring today, sometimes you just have to have "update" days :)

Happy Birthday Lauren

2010-02-01T19:26:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY IDOL... LAUREN CONRAD :)

Embracing Beauty

2010-02-01T12:29:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R_PpRpYME10

Just wanted to write a little encouraging word today to everyone reminding everyone that they are BEAUTIFUL... I know sometimes life can get so tough but always remember who you are and whose you are :). Take some time today for yourself and embrace who you are inside and out. God made something special through you and He is faithful and just to complete the work he has started in you. Philippians 1:6

**Moving back into Union tomorrow to begin the new semester. Im very excited to see what the new semester has in store :)

**Everything that i've been hearing and reading these days has been talking about taking comfort in the wings of God. Letting Him comfort you and help you along. So i challenge you .. take comfort in the shadow of His wings, Get rejuvenated in Christ this week :)

Preparing My Heart

2010-01-28T15:36:00.000-08:00

I'm going to ask everyone to take a minute to watch this video linked below since im not sure how to load videos on my blog yet, and then continue to read..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e4NlyZqJhwk

This weekend God is teaching me how important it is to minister to the people around me. I have been praying and seeking Gods face about this semester at college. I dont wanna waste anymore time like I did last semester. I must use my time for Gods glory, all of the time. I have compiled a list of 10 things that are very important to me:

1. Cell Phone
2. Bible
3. Time with friends and Family
4. School
5. My future
6. My computer
7. Money
8. My car
9. Chi Omega
10. Food and Drink

So how am I using these to Minister... What difference am I making in the world for Gods glory with these worldly objects. How is this semester and the year of 2010 going to impact where I am placed for the Lord. I had one of the realest/ scariest moments this morning when I woke up and realized that I had left my Bible at home this morning and I was an hour and a half away out of town. I sat there and tried to imagine if it was like this everyday, no bibles nothing anywhere close..It scared me to death, Luckily I had my IPhone and was able to look up some scripture and it was very refreshing. But I have been taking so much for granted and want to have sweet and pure child like innocence and I want to prepare myself for this semester and the struggles I will come upon so I will be fasting from most all of these objects this weekend, (Saturday-Monday) before the return to campus Tuesday. This time will be used studying and memorizing and reading about my maker and in this cluttered "stuff" world we live in to have a chance to e still and just listen to what God has for me. I will also spend time getting my body healthy as well, a healthy body on the outside and inside is what i'm desiring. This semester I want to place others before myself and minister for his glory and not my own.

"Proud people don't feel amazed at being treated well. They don't feel deep gratefulness. But humble people do. In fact, they are made even more humble by being treated graciously. They are so amazed that grace came to them in their unworthiness that they feel even more lowly. But they recieve the gift. Joy increases, not self-importance. -John Piper- A Sweet and Bitter Providence"

Sweet and Bitter Providence

2010-01-21T07:42:00.001-08:00

So I have gotten in the reading mode, I have no idea why and I have never really wanted to read books in my life but for some reason I have desired nothing more than to read. This is the Book I have grabbed for right now, Sweet and Bitter Providence by John Piper. First of all let me tell you that it was between this book and another one ( that will be next on the list) and when I got to the store this is the only one that they had so I figured this is the one God wanted me to read at the moment and Wow, once I got into it I can definitely see why. This book talks about Gods timing and waiting on him in everything and that through everything whether good or bad or punishing or not, Gods glory will be shown. One huge statement from the book that has stuck with me so far says, Bitterness is a powerful Blindness, What Piper is saying is that we must be careful of how caught up in the "Bad things" going on around us and not let our mind get so bitter and clouded that we miss out on the good that is coming from it... I plan on posting more as I read the book.. im interested to see what is to come.

Last night while at church I was reminded of the situation of Haiti, and it has not crossed my mind one time to pray for them. This is ridiculous of me to be honest, I figured since they were far away it really didnt matter, this is quite the contrary, In reality they need Christians like us in the states praying our bottoms off for them. Haiti could have alot of bitterness in their hearts because their whole lives have been changed their homes have been destroyed, family members lost, etc. but in reality there is such sweet providence in this.. Haiti is getting tons of money given to them, they get a fresh new start and maybe thats what God wanted for them. I am going to be wearing a red ribbon for the rest of the week on my arm to remember to pray for the beautiful people of Haiti. I challenge everyone to be in prayer for them and to try and not get blind in the bitterness of your own lives but try to clear that out and see what God is doing great in you to show His glory

**Beth Moore has a book coming out Feb. 2, called So Long Insecurities. I am so excited for this book :)

Confession Time....

2009-08-26T14:35:00.000-07:00

So im in a weird mood today ... I found out stuff that I shouldn't have and Im trying to take that in and not let it affect me, and to be completely honest, Rush is already stressing me out. So I thought that today I would do some fun blogs starting out with a "Confession Time" blog... Ill list numbers and make confessions .. no names will be involved so everything should be okay...

1. I wish we were close right now.. your my best friend and I dunno why but I wish you were my brother so we could spend every waking moment together. that would be so much fun.
2. I bet you didnt know that i journal to you everyday and believe me I write down all im feeling, you would probably get mad if you ever happened to stumble upon it and read it.
3. I would kiss you, and you know it, your prob one of the few Union boys i would kiss...
4. I think I have a small crush on you, I absolutely love talking to you.
5. You get on my nerves alot now, I wish you were more chill all the time.
6. I wanna talk to you so bad right now, but I cant break the rules :(
7.I wish I lived with you, it would be alot easier.
8.I wanna be just like you in so many ways.

Lady Antebellum Lyrics are Amazing ...

2009-08-24T22:47:00.000-07:00

School is going great, everything that I expected to happen didn't and thats a great things bc I was thinking to worst and none of it came true. Everything is working out, and im so happy for rush to get started because i met some pretty amazing girls tonight... I think that alot of the rules that we have to follow are kinda dumb and im so afraid that im going to break them on accident.

So my song for Day 5 is a Lady Antebellum song since I am obsessed with their music lately:

All We'd Ever Need :
Boy it's been all this time,
and I can't get you off my mind,
and nobody knows it but me.
I stare at your photograph,
still sleep in the shirt you left,
and nobody knows it but me.
Everday I wipe my tears away,
so many nights I've pray for you to say.

(Chorus)
I should have been chasing you,
I should have been trying to prove,
that you were all that mattered to me,
I should have said all the things,
that I kept inside of me and maybe,
I could have made you believe,
that what we had was all we ever need.

My friends think Im moving on,
but the truth is that nobody knows it but me.
And I've kept all the works you said,
in a box underneath my bed,
and nobody knows it but me.

But if youre happy I'll get through somehow,
but the truth is that I've been spinning.

It was all we'd ever need.

Oh, thought it was all we'd ever need.

I should have been chasing you,
you should have been trying to prove,
that you were all that mattered to me,
you should have said all the things,
that I kept inside of me and maybe,
you could have made you believe,
that what we had was all we ever need.

Was all we'd ever need

This is to You: So all summer long I have been perusing you, this is so wrong of my when your ready your ready and if it doesnt happen them it doesnt happen but i believe that every girl needs to be perused and I would like to be persued, alot.. i like how that feels, Im a girl im supposed to be treated great and get that funny little smile when i talk about him when im getting perused and when im getting flirted with... so now im kinda just in a waiting period of life where im waiting to be sought after, if thats by you ok, if not thats ok too... but lately ive been imagining every situation without u in my life (like in the future) and i can make it, believe me this is hard work .. im completely ok, and secure in who i am right now.. I think this was a huge step for me to reach and i think its been easier knowing that right now ur my best friend like you promised... when i look at you in ur eyes.. i used to see great things but now when u look in my eyes and i look in yours i see a huge building broken down to the ground I think maybe that building was love and it looks like a lot of work needs to be done on that building in ur eyes and mine.. to bring back that special spark that people see in peoples eyes who are in love.. but i know building a building takes months or even longer...rebuilding i have learned is a very slow and long and drawn out process i guess we will see how hard the workers are willing... but Rome wasn't built in a day :)

Life's a Journey...

2009-08-24T00:14:00.000-07:00

In previous post I had stated that I had made a goals/bucket sorta lift for this year and I have a couple of crazy things on the list and one of them is to hike. I dunno why but i really wanna hike, you know get the whole backpack with the sleeping bag attached and hike up someone.. I think that would be the coolest this ever. So I think i'm honestly gonna get to mark this one off my list this semester and not in a way that you would think, let me explain...

Everything, and boy do I mean everything that has been said to me lately has had attached.. the climb, the journey, the path...ok you get it its all been about hiking. My life this semester is about a journey that i must take. Yesterday I watched the Hannah Montana movie and she talked about the climb, my pastor this morning talked bout climbing and the long hard journey, and honestly everyone that i have talked to today has said something about it. Im pretty sure God is trying to teach me something through this.. something huge. This journey that I have been on is stressful and taken so much out of me but at the same time I love hiking.. it makes me stronger, when you have a partner (God) He supplies you with everything that you need along the way... I'm anxious to see where this mountain leads me and though the journey is hard and takes a long time and its exhausting, my God has created some pretty amazing things so im anxious to see the view from the top.. I bet its amazing :)

Day 4:

2009-08-23T07:27:00.001-07:00

So I've been asked by several people to continue my song list that i stopped on day 4.. so i plan on doing that this week as well...My song for day four is probably one that your just going to look and and be like this is dumb and overplayed but actually when u get over that fact this song is really meaningful.. i watched the Hannah Montanna movie last night and when this song came on I just listened to the lyrics and they apply so well... just read...

The Climb
Miley Cyrus

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

Chicken...Chicken.. Your a Chicken !!

2009-08-22T21:18:00.000-07:00

So I got moved in today ( I'll load pictures later ) .. I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I have new roommates this semester and I'm anxious to get to know them and have so much fun with them. I'm really tired tonight bc I've been pretty busy today .. Moving in, soccer game, baseball game.. I think this semester is going to hold alot of fun and many oportunities :)

Today you taught me something and I think I believe it .. You told me to be positive and to be happy and even if you aren't and you keep telling yourself that you will probobly start believeing it. It works.. I did it today and had one of the best days I've had in weeks.

1. I love that even though we didn't get along alot last year I think this year is gonna be different , I've had so much fun with you lately.
2. I'm so glad that your changing you opion on living conditions. Your my best friend .. Forever!! Haye gramps- give me a ball
3. It was weird today for me with you , you called wow that was unexpected buy know that I am so proud of you and I love your family everytime I hang out with them
4. I miss you and I'm coming down to see you as soon as possible.
5. Thanks for teaching me things. Like how to be positive, and I'm so glad you've become best friends with another friend of mine so we can all hang out all the time now :)

"The greatest power that a person has is the power to choose "

The Start of Something New...

2009-08-21T19:21:00.000-07:00

So hello eveyone, Im very sorry that it has been a few weeks since my last post. Don't get me wrong I absolutly love blogging, but my mac has been broken and so I haven't been able to type anything.. It still isn't fixed but I missed blogging so much I am now continuing the habbit from my iPhone. So the last couple of weeks have been completely crazy and I had made and gotten close to so many people.. I'm gonna miss all of them when I go nvm to school but it will be nice to have people back home to connect with and keep in touch with...

I am still completely unstable in my emotions and I'm still working on that .. I'm trying to accept the new, move on and be content and not jealous in what God has blessed me with not all the people around me I can't worry about them, it makes me a miserable person to be around. I've cried alot the last couple of weeks an I'm honestly ready for my eyes to be out of tears. I am both excited and scared out of my mind to start this new semester.. I honestly can't believe I'm being this transparent here but.. I am gonna try to just roll with it and take one step at a time. I'm looking for a new best friend this semester .. One that I can call my own bc my old one isn't really a part of my life anymore but I have complete faith that God will supply that need for me :) .. I've made a list of goals or a bucketlist if you will for this semester and I'm actually really excited about it :)

There's been this person in my life since summer school and I'm really hoping that he will stay in my life this semester :) I've enjoyed the time I've spent with you and the fun times we've had together, you are so smart and I'm so excited to see what our future has in store and thanks for brunch this morning :) remember don't make promises you can't keep.

So I move into school tomorrow, as I said I'm excited and nervous .. I promise to keep everyone updated on here with pictures and everything. To all my college friends who just started with their freshman year.. Good luck.. Take some chances, stay up last , and make lots of friends. To my senior friends- I'm so excited for all of you , know that I'm here for you whatever you need this year :)

You may never know that Jesus is all you need until Jesus is all you have- Corrie Ten Boom

Day 3:

2009-07-31T10:36:00.000-07:00

I completely forgot to post a song for yesterday so here is one that's really fun and has been stuck in my head the last few days ...
"Down" by Jay Sean ft. Lil Wayne

You win some, You lose some, but you always live to fight another day...

2009-07-31T09:26:00.000-07:00

Wow is the only word that can possibly discribe the last week of my life. God seems to have a great sense of humor and I'm loving just "rolling with it". When I felt like I was going through the worst, emotional time of my life .. God showed up and radically rocked my world. I just wanna encourage everyone to keep holding on today.. Though times may be so bad and you may not like alot of things that are going on in your life or you can't control them, Keep holding on .. The God that parted the red sea and fed his people with mana everyday is still alive and working today. I'm not saying life is easy or everything is perfect, bit with God in controlit is so much easier to live for Him.

I have alot coming up in the next couple of weeks like rush retreat, my new lifeguarding job at the YMCA in Jackson when I get back to school, a wedding of a XO sister, moving into school. Etc . And I'm kinda nervous about alot of it.. I know it will be a fun and exciting time but I still hve nervous thoghts in the back of my mind. I will keep you all updated with pictures and news.

I need prayer for my grandmother she's been having alot of test run and I can tell that it's taking a huge toll on her, I will blog later about her results when we receive information about it.. Just be praying for her.

1. I miss you more than ever I didn't think it would be this hard but I'm not gonna be selfish because I know your over there making a difference and impacting alot of people for Christ. Keep up the good work and stay strong, I know it's a daily struggle.

2. I know your so tired of crying.. I wish I knew what to say to you other than I honestly just went through all of that .. And the only thing that helped my through was my wonderful loving merciful JESUS CHRIST.. I clug to Him and He is the one who pulled me out of my sorry pit of sin.

3. I know I'm not supposed to put names in numbers but I want you to for sure know who I'm talking about- Mom you are amazing and you have been such an amazing support system for me this summer .. There's no way I could tell you thank you enough or how much I love you.. Thanks for helping me out and loving me through my uglyness this summer.

4. I thought about it today and I'm really gonna miss you when you go back to school, you have been an amazing friend this summer .. Let's please hang out everyday unroll we go back to school ..

5. I can't believe I met you and didn't put two and two together, I feel dumb.

Day 2:

2009-07-29T12:05:00.000-07:00

Artist: The Fray lyrics
Album: The Fray
Year: 2009
Title: Never Say Never

Some things we don't talk about
better do without
just hold a smile
we're falling in and out of love
the same damn problem

together all the while
you can never say never
when we don't know why
time and time again
younger now then we were before
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go

picture you're the queen of everything
as far as the i can see
under your command
i will be your gaurdening
when all is crumbling
steady your hand

you can never say never
when we don't know why
time and time again
younger now then we were before
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go

we're falling apart
and coming together again and again
we're coming apart
but we hold it together
hold it together, together again

don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go(x2)

Knowing

2009-07-29T06:22:00.000-07:00

Last night a few friends and I watched the movie Knowing with Nicholas Cage and let me tell you one thing , if you want to make your mind start spinning about the end times , you should watch that movie. Last night was the second time that I have seen the movie and yet again it freaked the crap out of me .. And after watching the movie the room is normally filled with deep conversations about end times and different opions about end times. I advise everyone to watch that movie atleast once; but you must read Ezekiel 1 before you watch the movie to fully wrap your mind around it. After you get past a little Hollywood exaggeration the story turns out to be pretty acurate. We had so many questions arise from our conversation such as; why do we need sleep, Jesus coming like a theif in the night is so vague, what will end times really be like, why is Revelations so vauge, and it honestly freaked me out beoynd belief yet again after seeing it again. If anyone has seen the movie feel free to leave your thoughts on the film ...

Last night during my time of being afraid I kept remembering that in verses that talk about end times kept saying that we should rejoice in these times.. And I also know that were not supposed to worry so I laid my wondering mind in his hands and finally fell asleep.. I'm gonna be honest I have little idea about the end of the world or end times , but I am confident that God has got the whole world in control and I am one of His children so the end times should not be a scary thought for me or anyone else that is a child of Christ.

Day 1:

2009-07-28T09:23:00.000-07:00

So this week I thought it would be fun to have a song of the day .. Leave comments and let me know what you think of the songs each day .. I'll try to choose songs from different genres ... :)

Well you're the closest thing, I have, to bring up in a conversation
About love that didn't last, but I could never call you mine
Cause I could never call myself yours, and if we were really meant to be
Well then we'd justify destiny, it's not that our love died it just never really bloomed

No I can't let go, no I can't let go of you
You're holding me back without even trying to
I can't let go, I can't move on from the past
Without lifting a finger you're holding me back

And then we saw our past, diverge, and I guess I felt okay about it
Until you got with another man, and then I couldn't understand
Why it bothered me so, no we didn't die we just never had a chance to grow.

I can't let go, no I can't let go of you
You're holding me back without even trying to
I can't let go, I can't move on from the past
Without lifting a finger you're holding me back

And it might not make sense
To you or any of my friends
But somehow still you affect the things I do
And you can't lose what you never had
I don't understand why I feel sad
Every time I see you out with someone new

I can't let go, no I can't let go no I can't let go of you
I can't let go, no I can't let go of you
You're holding me back without even trying to
I can't let go, I can't move on from the past
Without lifting a finger you're holding me back

I can't let go, no I can't let go of you
You're holding me back without even trying to
I can't let go, I can't move on from the past
Ooooooh

Can't Let Go - Landon Pigg

When God closes one door, Another is soon to be open...But you must LET GO.

2009-07-27T21:28:00.000-07:00

I know I haven't blogged in a few days.. I've been super busy with LIFE, and let me tell you one thing LIFE is hard. Being a Big Kid is tough stuff. But yet again through it all God has still prevailed. Let me share a quote with you that I grabbed from a fellow blogger's page that will help me to explain what I've been going through...

It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything.

~ Tyler Durden (Fight Club)

This quote pretty much sums it all up. I'm gonna get really honest and tell you that my life has been a complete and total train wreck this summer. God has completely been my "lifeguard" this summer. In my lifeguard training I learned some awesome saving techniques and some just barley keep the victims head above water. God has definitely been keeping my head above water this summer. That's where i've been this summer. But here's why... I CAN'T TAKE CONTROL. I am a major control freak and lately everything has been crashing down on me such as old boyfriend problems, roommate problems, money issues, etc. and I have tried with everything in me to control every single one of them.. but let me tell u that's not working. It like the quote said.. i must let go of everything to be able to do anything. So now i'm taking a new approach.. letting God handle it all .. and not only praying about it once or twice a week but every single day that I wake up its the first thing that I do and throughout my day I meditate on Him and continue to ask Him for the "desires of my heart"... I know God's got something amazing in store for me because He promised me in his word in Jeremiah. Tonight I was able to let go and give control to God one of the strongest holds I had pulling me down in my life... which means if I can do that these other tiny things that I like to control should be easier to give up.. I know that Satan will be attacking hard through my emotions because most of the areas I like to control have to do with my emotions, but I am filled with Christ's joy and through my life may not be perfect right now, I'm not upset because when it comes down to it God has supplied me with everything I have needed this summer and I can see Him growing and molding me through each of these struggles.

This is my prayer and cry to Christ this week...
“I will arise today, equipped and fortified To meet life’s problems, with— God’s strength to pilot me, God’s wisdom to guide me, God’s eye to look before me, God’s ear to hear me, God’s Word to speak to me, God’s hand to guide me, God’s way of life before me, God’s shield to protect me, God’s grace to save me.”

Psalm 30:5
Weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.

Psalm 34:18
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit

Psalm 73:26
My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

2 Corinthians 1:3-5
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows.

I'm not really fond of saying "Goodbye", I'd rather say "See Ya Later"...

2009-07-23T07:29:00.000-07:00

Wow, this morning began early. My alarm went off at 5:00am and I rolled out of bed with a bittersweet feeling in my stomach. One girl that I love so much left today, She left to embark on the next journey of her life. Part of me is completely upset and the other half of me is stoked about what she is going into. Michelle left for Lauga, Germany today for the next 11 months. God has given her such a great opportunity to go with a non christian organization to minister to the dark and dying world in Germany. Michelle and I go back really far... get this she used to think that we would never be friends because I was "to cool", boy was she wrong.. she is one of the coolest girls ive ever met and I am very honored to have the opportunity to be friends with her and cant wait till she returns. I am sad during the wait and feel like I need to/ have to stay strong in the situation but inside I am broken and i'm tired of crying. I wish her the best, I know she is in Gods will, and I will continue to count down the days of return.. I cant wait to experiance the feeling of ministing in two different parts of the world but still staying connected at the same time.

Michelle,
You are amazing and I am gonnna miss you more than words can express. You are one of the strongest women I have ever met in my whole entire life. Im really gonna be struggling here without you and your love and advice. This summer passed by way to fast in my opinion but I wouldnt change any of it for the whole entire world, even the rough parts. If anything happens thats crazy like i get engaged, youll be the first to know haha.. dont do anything to crazy while your in Germany without my concent haha.. im just kidding, have the time of your life. My eyes were filled with tears of saddness and joy as I parted from you at the airport this morning. Know that there will be plenty of pictures of you in my dorm room this semester and everytime someone asks me why im wearing a shirt that says german on it know that a smile will come on my face when i get to tell someone about you and your trip. Blog alot because I dont wanna miss out on a moment f your life. Know i will be counting down the days till you come home and me and Nick will be standing right there when you get off the plane ready to give you the biggest welcome home "sign" and hug ever!(and a trip to the club :) I love you from the bottom of my heart and I will be praying for you along your journey. We'll try to keep America under control over here while you tackle Germany.... <>< -Lauren

Don't mess with Texas...

2009-07-21T21:08:00.000-07:00

TO MY DEAR STEPHANIE SOWELL AND BECKY WEBB:
I miss you two more than anything and I found this picture and was thinking how awesome would it be if we had a Texas waffle maker in our dorm. I love you girls, and I can't wait to see you in a few weeks -love always, Lauren

What is Love..Baby Don't Hurt Me..Don't Hurt Me ..No More

2009-07-21T12:16:00.000-07:00

So everyone that has been reading my blog lately knows that this summer has been a search to figure out what love really is... I almost regret ever telling anyone that i love them because in reality, i've never even really understood what love was .. there are so many different names and kinds of love.. I hate that America is stuck with one word for love.. how are people supposed to decipher what kind of love that the other is talking about... I for sure am still not sure all the ends and outs of love but my mom send me this today and it really has me thinking about love again... and I want everyone to know what im figuring out on this journey... so let me know your thoughts.. positive or negative..

What is Love?

It is silence- when your words would HURT.
It is patience- when the other person is abrupt.
It is deafness- when a scandal flows.
It is thoughtfulness- for other’s woes.
It is promptness- when stern duty calls.
It is courage- when misfortune falls.

Is it love? Probably not if it…

-Assumes the other person will change to please you.
-Causes feelings of insecurity or jealousy.
-Appeared as “love at first sight.”
-Is easily forgotten when the other person is not around.
-Makes you fell “stressed out” when you’re together.
-Consumes your life.
-Is selfish.
-Seems to have peaked and is diminishing.
-Limits other friendships.
-Is based on your partner’s appearance.
-Is based on feelings of possessiveness.
-Has sexual gratification as its main goal.
-Pressures you to do things you DON’T WANT TO DO!
-Blinds you to your partner’s faults.

Is it love? Maybe if it…

-Accepts the other person as he or she is.
-Builds trust.
-Started as friendship and grows over time.
-Lasts even when distance separates you.
-Makes you feel relaxed and at ease with each other.
-Allows you to do things without your partner.
-Makes you place your partner’s needs BEFORE your own.
-Gets stronger as time goes on.
-Allows you to have friends of both genders.
-considers appearance as only part of the attraction.
-Recognizes the other person’s individuality.
-Is rewarding without a sexual component.
-Allows you to reject things that make you uncomfortable.
-Accepts your partner’s faults.

"How can you say, 'I love you,' when your heart is not with me? ...
Judges 16:15

---You don’t love a woman because she is beautiful; she is beautiful because you love her. -Anonymous

Bring Your Best Friend to Work Day...

2009-07-20T19:04:00.001-07:00

"Bring your best friend to work day"

Nick really impressed my class making animals out of playdoh.. this fish looked real!!

Nick had to show all the third graders up by chalk drawings on the board

Nick came up to my work last week and we had so much fun together.. He played with my third graders all day long .. I'm pretty sure I made him fall in love with my job and maybe he will work there next summer... I had a great day with you nick, heres our pictures.. i know you want them :)

Just a few Encouragiong Words...

2009-07-20T11:16:00.000-07:00

I have been really busy over the last weekend, I am trying to finish summer classes and I have been through lifeguard training, etc. I have had a rough week and so I don't think it would be a good idea to write my thoughts down right now because stuff might come out to people in ways that i don't mean, but me and God have been really close lately and I just want to encourage all of you with one simple thought that God has laid on my heart this weekend...

Forget about the consequences of failure. Failure is only a temporary change in direction to set you straight for your NEXT SUCCESS.

1 Chronicles 22:13 Then you will have success if you are careful to observe the decrees and laws that the LORD gave Moses for Israel. Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or discouraged.

Psalm 40:1-3

I waited patiently for the Lord to help me,

and he turned to me and heard my cry. 2 He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along. 3 He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see what he has done and be amazed. They will put their trust in the Lord.

BRITT NICOLE - LOST GET FOUND...

2009-07-16T08:12:00.000-07:00

Hello my friend
I remember when you were
So alive with your wide eyes
Then the light that you had in your heart was stolen
Now you say that it ain't worth stayin'
You wanna run but you're hesitatin'
I'm talkin' to me

Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'Cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found

So when you get the chance
Are you gonna take it?
There's a really big world at your fingertips
And you know you have the chance to change it
There's a girl on the streets, she's cryin'
There's a man whose faith is dyin'
Love is calling you

Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'Cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found

Why do we go with the flow
Or take an easier road?
Why are we playin' it safe?
Love came to show us the way
Love is a chance we should take
I'm movin' out of the way

Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'Cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
(Stand out)
Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
(Stand out)
'Cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found

So when you get the chance
Are you gonna take it?
There's a really big world at your fingertips
And you know you have the chance to change it

To listen to her story behind the song CLICK HERE

Put me in Coach, I'm ready to Play...

2009-07-16T07:58:00.000-07:00

This summer I participated in church league softball.. it ended up being so much fun playing softball every Tuesday night with all of my friends... I played pitcher and outfield... We were the gold team and even tough we only won one game, there was never a dull moment on that field!

Girls don't Sweat, We Glisten...

2009-07-15T22:34:00.000-07:00

I have been taking a biology class for the whole summer at northwest and let me tell you one thing, my lab professor is pretty amazing.. he is a christian man, though he has never come out and told us that because we go to a secular college and that is not allowed, he does an amazing job of always slipping it in...This was proved once again tonight when we were finishing the talk on sex and sex organs... he posed the question..

Guys, do you know why you should not have sexual relationships with a woman untill you are married to her??

His response to this answer is something that I will never ever forget for the rest of my life and it is probably one of the coolest things I have ever learned in my whole entire life. He said.... " When women are pregnant they secrete a hormone called oxcytosin, this is a hormone that is released once the baby is born and makes mothers be able to begin to breast feed, it also is an "attraction" hormone that when the baby is attached the first time the mother has a sense of ULTIMATE ATTACHMENT to this baby, they feel love, they feel closeness, etc. Up until recently that is all that scientist thought this hormone did but in recent studies this hormone is shown to be preset in sexual activity and in very strong sexual arousal, In class we went into a few more details but ill try to keep my blog as G rated as possible :). So when a man makes a woman like this she prodeces ULTIMATE ATTACHMENT for him, thats why it is so hard for girls who have gone to far with guys to let go of them.. this hormone makes us feel commitment, and passtion, and longing, and closeness. During this time, guys also secrete this hormore but its not enough to even affect them. THIS ABSOLUTLY BLEW MY MIND!!!

Lately my small group has been talking about the "Lies Women Believe" as i mentioned eairler, but we have also been looking at "rules" in the Bible and seeing why they are really there.. weve looked at things like why couldnt people in the old testament eat shellfish and why did they have to wait 7 days to be circumcised.. and we found out that there were bad things that could happen to them if they did this, so they wern't rules, THEY WERE PROTECTION FOR THE PEOPLE. Just like sex, its not supposed to happen till after were married, and not because God doesnt want us to have fun, its to protect us as women. Protect our hearts from getting that attachment hormone released in our bodies. Our God is such an awesome God how he set up everything to work, I am enjoying so much learning more and more about him everyday.

IF THIS BLOWS YOUR MIND LIKE IT DID MINE.. leave me a comment and let me know what you think!

Four Score and Seven Years Ago..

2009-07-13T11:58:00.000-07:00

This weekend was probably one of the best weekends that I have had in awhile. Spending time with friends, going away parties, redbirds game, swimming. I'm not sure if im ready for the summer to be over soon, school is going to be great and I love it there its just i'm gonna miss a lot of relationships that have been made this summer as well.

This summer has been alot about the word love. I know that this seems like it keeps getting repeated over and over again in everyones notes and blogs but I feel like we still have questions concering the issue, so why not talk about it? I have such a distorted view of marriage.. let me try to explain... Its not that im afraid of divorce or anything like that, just the ultimate love that is involved in marriage and the order of life in which it is supposed to happen. I have been reading the book, "Lies Women Believe", which has been so great in supplying me with answers. Ok I know im just rambling, so ill try to get to the point.

We as southern women believe that the order of life is school, then college, and right after college marriage and the day after you get married to start thinking about children. This is so distorted. We never enjoy life because we are so caught up in making this form or model apply to our lives. I was here, i believed this all, and I feel into the lie that the world wants us to believe, I had a boy for almost 2 years, of course I thought that we were getting married and based alot of decisions in my life on that relationship. Its ok to date im not saying that at all, date , find out the kind of person you want to be with and what kind of skills and challenges take place in relationships. I really wish I could make this make since to all of you, im really trying. Being single this summer has taught me so much about myself and i honestly would have never wanted it any other way. It was hard leaving comfort zones and romance, but it wasnt want I honestly wanted or needed in my future mate, I feel like God has someone really cool for me that compliments me perfectly and has such a love in his heart just for me. Im such a control freak, and am jealous, and want attention, and for people to do special things for me, this is all normal im a girl, but i've never honestly look at the Bible and legit tried to figure out what a marriage is honestly supposed to look like.Ive been digging for that lately and watching every relationship in sight and learing good and bad things for every singe one of them, and I do mean EVERY RELATIONSHIP. Ive never honestly prayed for my husband and I may not get married RIGHT out of college like i would like to but ive honestly been praying about that more than ever before thses days. God has put such a comfort and peace in my heart about the whole situation and I pray so hard for my husband bc lately ive been learing from a few close guy friends how hard it truly is for guys and I would like my husband to be the best fit for me as well as me for him. Im striving even today to be the Proverbs 31 woman.. and let me tell you one thing .. its hard work.. that woman is always working, always serving, always planning, always wearing a smile, looking nice, etc. But my desire is to be just like her. I want to say so much more but I guess I will begin to sum it all up.

Im not perfect, I still struggle to fit into the "mold" everyone expects from me, but im working on it. I advise every girl that reads this to get a copy of the book , "Lies Women Believe". For my future husband that is out there and whenever God desides to being us together, I will be ready for you, because im beginning to prepare myself. Ive grown up alot this summer, actually had to be an adult and make adut decisions about worldly stuff and its been hard, but God hasnt failed me yet.. O dont worry ive blamed him... been mad at him.. treated him like "any ole other guy on earth", and even believed that his character qualities have been the same as men that fail me on earth, but He is not like that... he is wonderful and im so excited about the path and journey he has set for my life. Its time to get out of that "normal mold" and be an extrordinary woman of Gods grace..

If you were on a baseball team.. what would be your song ??

2009-07-11T23:45:00.000-07:00

Today I feel like i was rather productive.. I cleaned out my room and got a lot done. Tonight was tons of fun as well, Redbirds games are always so much fun with your friends and every girl should know that its illegal to not wear a dress to a baseball game ;) right Michelle!

My time with you tonight was fun and well needed. I don't think it made me think anything, but it did get me feeling a little more confident. You made me feel like I am good enough. I don't really know if were breaking the rules here but you made me feel a little rebellious tonight. I feel like ive missed out on lots of those crazy moments in life when you know you shouldn't do something because you've been told not to, but now i'm taking more chances, seeing life in a different perspective. I guess I need to watch out and not go overboard though. I had so much fun tonight though... it should definitely happen again. I really don't want to make you fall for me though, im not ready for that again .. AT ALL!!

..."I'm in trouble I'm an addict I'm addicted to this girl She's got my heart tied in a knot And my stomach in a whirl"...

1. Boom Boom Pow, im so glad that im turning you into a girly girl,glad you love the cd :)
2. Would you rather...
3. I feel like were growing apart and im not sure I like it.
4. It was just for fun... a lotta bitta fun.

But really if you were a baseball player, what would be your song as you walked up to bat?? Leave me a comment with the song you would choose, this might be pretty funny ..

So could you tell I was definitely the girl with the gum tonight ...

2009-07-10T21:48:00.000-07:00

Today was really fun.. at work we went to the IMAX and after work we had a going away party for Michelle. It was great fun and we took lots and lots of pictures, I seem to be in big picture taking moods here lately. But anyways, I truly am gonna miss that girl so much while she is gone..

So tonight we talked about list .. if you don't know what it means its completely ok i think its just kinda funny to be completely honest. There's not that many people on my list , i guess that's a good thing .. and Regan your not at the bottom of my list .
I dont have anything extra-spectacular to talk about tonight i mainly just had a really fun day, but I think thats exactly what I needed. Tomorrow is Redbirds game.. Cant wait :)

"And it's alright, yeah I'll be fine Don't worry 'bout this heart of mine Just take your love and hit the road There's nothing you can do or say You're gonna break my heart anyway So just leave the pieces when you go"

1. You are absolutly the cutest redhead friend I have, Im so glad I met you this summer, you are beautifula and I love every time that we get to hang out.
2. Redbirds game tomorrow, we get to wear dresses... I had so much fun with you tonight, im gonna miss you so much when your gone. I should have been a little crazier when I was in highschool and played spin the bottle :)

3. So how was I at being the girl with the gum tonight ... I wish that we could just get away from each other for a long time because I think it would be really good for us, but thats not possible.
4. Ill get the strips ASAP
5. I think you might possible regret life if anything ever happens between yall because I see you missing out on so much.. I Love You
6. We need to talk way more and get caught up.. Ur way cuter, and not #3, I think thats possibly a misprint.
7. Cherry Grove .. Me + You = Soon

These are the people I work with... I absolutly love them :)

2009-07-10T21:45:00.000-07:00

Difference Between Romance and Love…

2009-07-09T22:26:00.000-07:00

Romance is flattering attentions;
Love is genuine thoughtfulness.
Romance is suspense, anticipation, surprise;
Love is dependability.
Romance is tingling, excitement;
Love is tenderness, constancy and begin cherished.
Romance is delicious;
Love nourishes.
Romance can’t last.
Love can’t help to.
Romance is seeking prefection;
Love is forgiving faults.
Romance is fleeting;
Love is Long.
Romance is the anguish of waiting on the phone to ring to bring you a voice that will utter endearments;
Love is the anguish of waiting for a call that will assure you someone else is happy and safe.
Romance is eager, striving always to appear attractive to each other;
Love is two people who find beauty in each other no matter how they look.
Romance is dancing in the moonlight, gazing deep into desired eyes across a candlelit table;
Love is saying “You’re tired, honey, I’ll get up this time,” and stumbling through the darkness to warm a bottle or to comfort a frightened child.

“In REAL Love, you want the other person’s good. In ROMANTIC Love, you want the other person.”

So many times in our relationships we are consumed with the romance and think we are “IN LOVE”… maybe we should step back and think about this for a moment. I have never been a person to really throw around that powerful 4 letter word called LOVE, but lately this word has seemed to come up over and over again. From loving friends to love in relationship and love between a person and Jesus Christ. Are these loves different, do we treat them differently. One of my professors last semester stated this quote…”The one power that has more power than anything else is LOVE”..I believe this quote with all that is in me, you may disagree, but here lately I feel like love is the root of everything and that everything grows from love. My view of love the last couple of weeks has been very distorted and I will continue to elaberate on that in further post but right now I want to know what you think.. Whats love to you, is it confusing , complicated, the root of everything, powerful beoynd belief, can someone have unconditional love??

1. Thank you for listening last night .. i’m trying really hard to open up my heart to trust you

2. You made my heartbreak, Im not sure how to put it back together..I have so much anger built in my heart towards you. I am a princess, did you forget.

3. Im so sad weve waited so long to get so close, I wish you were not leaving

4. Im ready to be back at Union with you… You are like my other half.

5. Im so glad were BFF, you may not know but you have been teaching me so much lately, im gonna miss you with you go back to school…we need to have more late night talks really soon.